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LOVELIES,

I have been MIA for over a month now & I apologize, in case you thought I had fell off the blog train. In December I felt like everything was amped up to hyper speed the. entire. month. It was pure craziness Dec. 1st - Dec. 26. Things calmed after the "Christmas storm" & then, well, we were just lazy for an entire 14 days. Adam had vaca days to use so he was home with us for two whole weeks. 

OBVIOUSLY, 

we loved every second of it. 

This is every second of every day & currently a real life view of how I am typing this post. So, please be patient ( lol )

I'll do a photo dump for you at the end of the post so you can catch a little glimpse of our month+some off ;)

While we were home being lazy bums, we binge watched SCANDAL. OH MY GOSH. If you have never watched it, do yourself a favor and exit from my blog; go to Netflix, find it, AND WATCH IT. All of it. I am so obsessed. Adam makes fun of me for loving it so much & putting each character in real life situations or talking about them like we had brunch yesterday. 

#OLITZ

I know that he will even make fun of me for mentioning it in my post, but I am emotionally attached to a television show & I am not afraid to admit it. That is the first step, isn't it? Ha! It truly is so great. After completely finishing 5 seasons in those 14 days I have been in a Scandal depression since. It does come back on in February, so that is the only thing that gives me some hope to keep pushing forward (kidding-sort of) I have tried at least 8 different shows on Netflix to try to fill the empty space Scandal left behind, but nothing. Nada. I just can't love another show the same. I have asked all of my friends, my momma friends in my May group, family, neighbors, strangers - joking about the last 2, but I am close to resorting to it....They've all suggested some amazing shows, but I can't get into any of them. I just need someone to feel so passionate about a show they love the way I love Scandal & recommend it to me! Okay, I'm sounding like a crazy person now so, I'll stop *February, February, February* I do have to add: I also love Greys and How to Get Away With Murder . . . ALMOST as much as this. Almost. My Thursday nights will be booked starting Feb.11th and I can't wait, in case you missed that.

I have recently started Parenthood on Netflix & I am now 4 eps in, it isn't terrible. I mean, it's no Shonda Rimes special but it isn't bad by any means. I enjoy all the puns it has to offer and any show I can relate to (parenting) is worth a shot.

Would I recommend? Yes. Especially if you're a parent, try it out.

I have found myself keeping a small window open with it playing any time I am sitting at my computer . . . . . . . who am I kidding, it gives me all the feels. I tear up almost every episode. It's good.

Also, if YOU have any recommendations for a show please let me know! I am all ears.

Let's talk CHRISTMAS! I'm totally over it at this point, but ours was nothing short of amazing. I hope all of you had a great one as well! The kiddos got everything on their little lists to mom, dad and Santa and it was the happiest day in the Perry home. It's the best feeling to just sit back and watch your babies eyes light up each time they open a gift. It could be the smallest thing but they don't care. To them, it is everything they've ever wanted. "One of the most glorious messes in the world is the mess created in the living room on Christmas day." True. Normally, I am going behind them cleaning up every mess they make but in that moment, on Christmas morning, I let the mess be. I let them throw paper all over every inch of our living room. I let them put the paper over their faces to act silly. I soak in every mili-second on that one particular morning (as I honestly should learn to do all of the time) and all is right in the world. Another sad reminder that always hits me during the holidays is the fact that SO many children go without. So many don't get a single thing for Christmas. There is so much poverty in the world it breaks my momma heart to think about it. In a split second, all of the excitement and joy quickly turns to guilt when I think about those poor babies. Feeling bad that we have "gone all out" for ours, when to so many, Christmas is just another day. I realize I can't have this train of thought, so I shake it and continue to enjoy that moment and happiness with my kids and husband. The smallest things we take for granted. 

BLESSED

I didn't even bother to go into detail things we did before Christmas, because it is all a blur. HAHA!  So, moving on - - - - - - ->

MAJOR BRONSON IS EIGHT MONTHS OLD as of January 1st.

Insert the saddest face you can imagine here _______

He is the happiest baby, smiles if you just glance in his direction and is into EVERYTHING. The day that I couldn't wait for, and dreaded at the same time. He still does the army crawl, but unlike his big brother he does use both arms to drag himself. Maddux only used ONE and take my word for it, it was the most hilarious sight. I have a love/hate with this task my sweet boy has achieved. More love than hate though ;)

My heart smiles every time I look at him. How has 8 whole months gone by?

I don't remember feeling this way with Maddux, but when I watch Major grow, I get more and more sad. I am constantly thinking about how his firsts will turn into his lasts and how he will never be a tiny baby again. Don't get me wrong, I do love watching my boys grow more than anything. But for some reason, this little guy is leaving me with a slight sadness with every milestone he hits. He is so independent & I'm blaming that for my sad heart. He won't let you rock him to sleep, he doesn't cry when you walk out of his sight, he doesn't need held all the time...I could go on. Maddux needed all of these; rocked, held, he was clingy, he needed me. I shouldn't complain because isn't that what every mother hopes for?! An independent, strong willed baby who goes to sleep on his own and doesn't fuss or whine, ever. That's what we all say we want, but in reality, it stinks. On the contrary, he is a total moms boy.

When I had Major, we were positive that we were done having babies. We said NO MORE KIDS & were completely sure of that...until recent. I don't feel done. In order for me to sit down and say, "Okay. No more babies for me." I NEED to feel that way 100% and at this point in my life, I don't. I have been blessed with two healthy, handsome, strong, growing boys + a bonus daughter and I am so happy to call them mine - BUT - this Perry family just needs ooooone more addition. I DO NOT have baby fever, by any means, but I just know that I need one more sweet baby before I say I'm done. The sadness somewhat fades when I think about the future & think about going through everything just one more time and I need to really mentally prepare myself for what's to come when the next time is really the LAST. Of everything. Last labor. Last delivery. Last time bringing a new baby home. Last first doctors appointment. Last time breastfeeding. Last time to take monthly sticker photos ^. It will be the last time for all of it...and that...is what I need to prepare for, rather than get down and out when my tiniest little guy learns something new. Motherhood is some hard biz people. 

I dunno about you, but this has been t h e l o n g e s t w e e k in the history of weeks.

I'm 99% sure that most of the reason is because it was Adam's first full week back after those glorious 14 days of 24/7 help he gave me. Regardless, this week has taken its toll on momma bear. Are you as happy to see the weekend as I am?! Being a mother is the hardest most rewarding job on the planet - guaranteed. AND to all single mothers who do this every day with no help from anyone, you guys win at life. It is not for the weak hearted and I applaud you! You go girl! Though it has been a rough week for us, it's still the best life ever. There isn't anything in the world I would rather do.

I plan to do a lot of relaxing this weekend and handing over the reigns to dad for a bit in order to do so. Can't be too lazy, still have to get my 10k steps in for each day + I joined a weekend challenge with my friend. If you don't own a Fitbit, highly recommend! Definitely gets you up on your feet.

S/O to hubs for the best Christmas gift ;)

I have the Fitbit Surge - It's touch screen, monitors heart rate, steps, sleep, notifies you of calls/texts on your phone via bluetooth..etc. LOVE.

Another Christmas gift I can't leave out: MY MAC (from my mom) I have wanted one for a while and at some point she heard me say it and what a surprise it was when I opened it on Christmas Eve at my sisters with all of my family. 

I just got my desk set up and planning an entire home makeover (beginning with focus on the bedroom), all of which I will be blogging the progress for all of you!  Details will be in next blog post.

One last thing before I leave you with all of my cute pictures: I CUT ALL OF MY HAIR OFF and I couldn't feel sassier + I am blonde again *insert dancing girl emoji here* 

Now that I have somewhat caught you up on our life, I'll share a few pictures I have taken here and there and if you're wondering, they are all in order from Dec. 3-current. Organization at its finest. Stay tuned for my next couple posts; recipes & desk decor/beginning of bedroom redo! xo

Okay I lied, once last thing . . . . . . . .

I DIE.

 I got a new (great) niece on December 2nd! Maisie Jene Poore. My homegirl.